Friday, January 2, 2015

Surviving Arkham! How Jesus Helped Me Complete My Fast!

Happy Belated New Year and Christmas, Everyone!

Just wanted to let you all know that at 3:04 p.m. on December 27th of last year, Christ gave me the strength to complete my fast for my future wife.  Here is a brief synopsis of what happened.

Day 1 (12/23 at 3:00 to 12/24 at 3:00)-I missed out on my "last meal" because of sheer stupidity, so I had nothing in my stomach when I went to work that night.  It was awful: people were offering free food (popcorn and chocolate) for the holidays and on top of that, several December birthdays were being celebrated at our Christmas gift exchange, so there were three cakes.  I actually stepped outside during this time because I was getting cranky and didn't want to take it out on my coworkers.
It was late this night that Jesus gave me a new focus for my fast: to pray that my wife has living faith in Him (I haven't met her yet, so I don't know whether or not she is saved).

Everything else I wanted (including mind-blowing sex), would fall into place if she received that.

Day 2 (12/24 at 3:00 to 12/25 at 3:00)-This was my first ever Christmas Eve candlelight service.  During it, my friend Trav invited me over to have cocoa and cookies with his family.  I was all for it, thinking that I could resist the temptation to break my fast and just drink water.  Then I remembered how I had thought the same thing during my first ever attempt to fast.  Back then, an acquaintance from a different church invited me to his family's new place to watch Summerslam and they ordered pizza.  Suffice it to say that pepperoni laid the Smackdown on my desire for spiritual growth.  So sadly, I had to bow out of cookies and cocoa.  Next year, though, I hope Trav has some oatmeal raisin handy...

Day 3 (12/25 at 3:00-12/26 at 3:00)-On Christmas Day, I received a container full of chocolates as a gift and later, found out my Mom had included gingerbread in the package she and Dad had sent.  I put both in the fridge so I wouldn't be tempted.  I didn't do much except walk around a local park.  This was a mistake because lots of families were having picnics and playing soccer.  I simply did my best not to enjoy the smells until I went back home at nightfall, only to wake up covered in insect bites (I made sure to spray my room down later).

Day 4 (12/26 at 3:00-12/27 at 3:04).  Starting a little after 3:00 on 12/26, I felt a strong urge to quit.  I thought that I heard the Holy Spirit telling me that I had done enough and that I could quit.  I repeatedly said that if I stopped before the four days were finished, that I would look stupid, so I continued anyway.  Not to mention that that "still small voice" may have been my stomach trying to counterfeit God's voice to make me give up.

It was during that time that I experienced the hardest part of fasting: psychological torture.  This is where all of your inner demons (namely, wicked things that people have done to you and even worse, wicked things you've done to other people) come roaring out of your subconsciousness to disembowel your soul.  For my fellow superhero fans, this is basically the mental version of Batman fighting his way through Arkham Asylum.  Only, you're Batman (or Catwoman for you ladies-Batgirl sucks...).  How did I make it through?  Forgiveness and repentance, and turning my past over to Christ.  That is the only way to make it through.

After waking up on the 27th, I went to the library, which I spent watching things such as the promos of "Star Wars: The Force Awakens" and "Avengers 2" on Youtube.  It was while I was watching clips on Youtube which mirrored what I was experiencing that I felt convicted to spend my last half hour of fasting in prayer.  So I dedicated five minutes of prayer to each thing I wanted for me and my future wife (grace, love, justice, and truth).  Then I spent the rest of the time praying for my future wife to have living faith.  At the end, outside, I had a vision (or at least, a really vivid memory) of Stone Cold beating Shawn Michaels for the WWE title (back when it was known as the WWF title) at Wrestlemania 14.  I believe that this was confirmation from God that my fast was a success.  I celebrated by listening to "Born Again" by Newsboys, because I felt like a completely new person once the fast was over. 

I have no idea when (or where) I will meet my future wife.  However, when I do, I look forward to hearing about the miracles that God will do in her life because of this fast.

Ephesians 5:25-28 "Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave himself up for her  to make her holy, cleansing her by the washing with water through the word, and to present her to himself as a radiant church, without stain or wrinkle or any other blemish, but holy and blameless.  In this same way, husbands ought to love their wives as their own bodies. He who loves his wife loves himself." (NIV)     

Monday, December 22, 2014

The Fantastic Four! Several Key Areas I Will Be Praying For In My Future Marriage As I Fast

As I continue to prepare for my fast for my future wife, I have decided to focus on four key areas of our marriage

1) Grace-The foundation of our marriage will be to lead each other into a deeper relationship with Christ.  Through doing this, we will seek to lead others (in particular our children), into a living relationship with Christ that will save them from the Lake of Fire and allow them to live with Him forever in paradise.  Our marriage only has value if it accomplishes this goal.

2) Love-I will pray that my future wife and I will experience "The Sexual Force Unleashed" and "Romantic World Peace" well into our elderly years.  No reason to let all the young whippersnappers have all of the fun, haha!

3) Justice-I will ask God to allow us to properly raise our children with DISCIPLINE (so that they don't turn into the delinquents my nation's schools are churning out).  I will also pray for the strength to protect and LEAD my family so that God's Will is done in it.  In addition, I will pray that me and my wife deal justly with others and properly manage the resources God will give us.

4) Truth-I will pray that my wife and I each get a "Navy SEAL" team of same-gender, Christian best friends to keep us accountable (i.e. make sure we don't watch/read porn, masturbate, or cheat on each other with bodacious college babes/totally-ripped college studs).  I will also pray that we are open and honest with each other and communicate the truth IN LOVE (i.e. no swearing, hitting, or breaking stuff).  I will also pray that we get older couples to mentor us so that we stay focused on serving Christ and loving our family and others.  Mentors who are willing to put us in our place if we get out of line...

Please pray that I successfully do this, because it's going to be REALLY difficult!  


Monday, December 15, 2014

Hell In The Cell Of My Mind: A Prayer Request For My Four-Day Fast

Next week, I will be undertaking a four-day fast for my future wife.  I have done a three-day fast before and it was hell.  Many people only think of the hunger pangs when they think of going days without food.  To be honest, that was the easy part for me after Day 2.  The worst part was Day 3, when the Holy Spirit forced me to deal with many wicked things which others have done to me and which I have done to others.  I was literally losing my mind as all of the pent up bitterness, shame, and guilt from my past assailed me like the demonic inmates of a mental prison cell.  At the same time, through forgiveness and repentance, Christ completely transformed me and strengthened my faith.

At the same time, I was convicted by the experience.  I was fasting for a woman whom I thought was a close friend/sister figure, but the reality is that she was just an acquaintance from church.  I had moved to a new area and she was the first person my age who had shown me genuine kindness, so I prematurely promoted her to "close friend" before we truly got to know each other.  Suffice it to say that I have reason to believe that, as far as she was concerned, I was just the "cute, new guy at church", so to speak and we eventually grew apart.  I realized that I had gone above and beyond to help someone who was practically a stranger and was neglecting to pray for my own future wife (whom I have yet to meet).

So next week, I will pray and fast for four days for the woman who will help me be a better man and Christian for a lifetime.  A woman who will still want to be with me long after I cease to be the "cute, new guy at church."  This will be extremely difficult, so I would really appreciate your prayers for this fast.    

Monday, December 8, 2014

Becoming Christ's Mockingjay: Rebelling Against "The Capitol" Of Sexual Immorality

I am a diehard fan of "The Hunger Games" film and its two sequels.  The actors (Jennifer Lawrence in particular) are so great that they make me wish that their characters were real so that I could hang out with them.  In particular, "Mockingjay - Part 1" inspired me to continue my own war against "The Capitol" of sexual immorality, which has destroyed many of my friends and former classmates before they could even get married to begin with.

A lot of Christians don't understand that living for sexual purity is GOING TO WAR.  Once you decide to save yourself for your spouse, your friends (and sometimes even your family members) will turn on you.  The world will do whatever it takes to make you fall into sin so that your Christian witness is destroyed.  On top of that, Satan and his demons will do whatever it takes to destroy you for exposing what they promote as "sexual liberation" for what it really is : a tool of torture, slavery, and death.

Even worse, your own sinful, decadent desires will actually get WORSE when you first go to war.  After all, your "inner terrorist" (i.e. your flesh) craves forbidden sex like a drug addict craves cocaine.  Not to mention that you will become disillusioned by the fact that many activities which the world considers harmless (such as massaging your girlfriend's melons, or, if you're a girl, letting your boyfriend massage your melons) are actually very toxic and dangerous to you.  You may even get to the point where you are so discouraged that you just want to quit.

However, as impossible as it seems, victory can be achieved!  You CAN use a pure life to lead others to Christ as His Mockingjay! 

Being pure so that you can experience "The Sexual Force Unleashed" and "Romantic World Peace" is like committing your life to Christ: it will instantly put you at war with everyone around you, and especially against your own heart.  But through faith in what He did for you on the "hanging tree" known as the cross, not only will you be saved, but you can also experience the mindblowing, sexually-romantic hurricane of ecstasy that He wants you to have with your one-and-only, opposite gender spouse within marriage!

Matthew 10: 34 “Do not suppose that I have come to bring peace to the earth. I did not come to bring peace, but a sword." (NIV)
   

     

Monday, December 1, 2014

Underdog Is Here! My Quest For Inner Purity

"I consider myself the underdog in every fight."-Ronda Rousey

"Everybody has a chance.  It's my job to make that chance as low as possible."-Jon Jones

These quotes show why the pound-for-pound best male and female fighters alive are currently UFC champions: THEY KNOW THAT THEY CAN LOSE.

This kind of underdog mentality is also what separates the winners from the losers in the battle for sexual purity.  Those who are humble enough to acknowledge their weaknesses, take their opponents seriously, and fight with all of their heart to honor Christ with a pure marriage are the ones who become and remain Romantic MMA champions.  The self-righteous and the arrogant who think that they are invincible are the ones who get turned out by a crafty member of the opposite (or same) gender, get trapped by pornography, literotica and masturbation, or wind up having affairs which torch their marriage like a flamethrower. 

Regardless of how these people fall sexually, the answer is clear: those who do not defeat sin in the power of Christ will become sin's prison harlot! 

I do not want to be sin's prison harlot.  I do not want to have even a hint of sexual immorality in my life nor anything that would cause me to wound the wonderful, god-fearing wife that the Lord will give me in the future.  I want to overcome sin through faith in the death and resurrection of my Savior, Jesus Christ and be a living sacrifice to Him.  That is why I am taking the next 6 months to undertake a quest for inner purity.  Setting boundaries with the opposite gender, accountability groups and locking down electronic devices with filters and tracking software are all excellent tools for maintaining purity.  That being said, our greatest enemy will always be our own heart.  Even though I am a virgin, I'll be the first to admit that I still get tempted.  I've considered entering relationships with certain women (all of whom I've met through church circles) who were willing to "go all the way" if we wouldn't get caught.  To put it politely, one if these women (whom I found very attractive) wouldn't even require the smokescreen of a dating relationship.  This is why I stay away from these women: I know that they can beat me!  There are certain shows I've wanted to watch because I know they show things which I shouldn't be seeing (or doing) before marriage, which is why I stay away from TV.  And I am fully aware that there are loopholes around any filter a computer, tablet, or smartphone can have, which is why I limit my use of these devices to an "as needed" basis (i.e. checking email and blogging) to avoid the obvious temptations of the internet.

In other words, even though I still have my V-card, I am definitely the underdog in my fight to honor Christ with a pure marriage.  I KNOW THAT I CAN LOSE.  This is why I would appreciate your prayers as I take six months of daily devotionals and prayers to allow God to purify my heart.

Matthew 23:26 "Blind Pharisee! First clean the inside of the cup and dish, and then the outside also will be clean." (NIV)                          


Sunday, November 30, 2014

Gratitude: An Antidote To Sexual Impurity

Happy Belated Thanksgiving, Ladies and Gents.

Sorry for going so long without a blog post.  Since I work two jobs and have resumed martial arts training to deal with the stress, my weekends are pretty much shot.  So starting tomorrow, Monday will be when I blog about my quest to honor Christ to stay pure before, during, and, if I outlive my spouse (God forbid), after marriage.

Last weekend, one of my friends at my old church got married.  As a single guy in his late twenties, I'm not exactly a huge fan of weddings.  Nonetheless, I am glad that I went and was honored to be invited by her and her dad.     

While I probably would be more keen on weddings if I had a significant other, I'm no longer naive enough to think that, outside of a deep relationship with God, a wife is enough to make me happy.  That kind of thinking is what got Adam and Eve into trouble in the first place.  Satan told Eve that if she ate of the forbidden fruit, she AND her husband would be as God.  In other words, if they ate the fruit, they could boot God out of the picture and rule creation on their own.  So that's exactly what she and Adam (who was standing there the whole time, by the way) did.  Through eating the forbidden fruit, they rebelled against God and threw Him out of their lives.  Satan convinced Adam and Eve to be ungrateful for the paradise that God had given them and to reach for more: a world where they (and not the Lord) called the shots.  Their ingratitude, and their subsequent decision to reach for more than they should have, not only destroyed the paradise that God had given them, but condemned them and their descendants to an eternity in the Lake of Fire.  It took the death and resurrection of God Himself (in the form of His Son, Jesus Christ) to undo the damage which Adam and Eve did. 

If we aren't grateful for what God has given us, we won't appreciate it and we will seek out the forbidden (i.e. commit adultery or, if we are not married yet, have premarital sex and cheat on our spouse before we even meet them!).  This will cause us to throw the wonderful blessings God has given us through a plate-glass window and get ourselves thrown into our own personal Lake of Fire.  This Lake of Fire may include, but is not limited to:
-Divorce Court
-Baby Momma Drama
-STD Biological MMA
-Exes who make Heath Ledger's Joker character look like Spongebob Squarepants
-You get the idea...

I'm not saying that we should settle for spouses who are cheaters, alcoholics, drug addicts, porn freaks/chat room queens, "monkey-spankers"/"slumber party hostesses",  or abusive jerks/witches who lay the emotional/physical smackdown on us and our kids.  I'm just saying that we should be grateful for a spouse that is God-honoring, wise, loyal, mature, honest, and kind (and REALLY grateful if they are also smoking hot and have lots of bling, although these should not be our primary reasons for marrying them).

After all, not all of us are guaranteed marriage.  Even though God's original plan was for all of us to get married, human sin and death will wreck that plan for some of us.  Those of us who have a godly spouse in spite of those two things should be extremely grateful.  Satan, the culture, and our own wicked hearts will always try to trick us into wanting something more.  This can range from the obvious (i.e. a younger, hotter, more romantically charming/sexually adventurous, or richer woman/man) to the more subtle (i.e. a woman with an absentee father who emotionally connects with a kind, older male college professor or a man who was rejected by an overachieving family when he was a child who is drawn in by the affirmation of his female coworkers).  Like Adam and Eve, if we pursue these forbidden fruits, we will destroy the very paradise that God gave us.

The only way to grow and thrive in our own personal marital "Eden" is to be grateful for who God has given us.  Only then can we experience "Romantic World Peace" and "The Sexual Force Unleashed" within marriage.  Only then can we be like Mary and Joseph, who, through faith, were welcomed back into the presence of God by having the honor of raising Jesus Christ as their own Son.  Only then can we truly regain marital paradise.

"May your fountain be blessed,
    and may you rejoice in the wife of your youth.
19 A loving doe, a graceful deer—
    may her breasts satisfy you always,
    may you ever be intoxicated with her love.
20 Why, my son, be intoxicated with another man’s wife?
    Why embrace the bosom of a wayward woman?" (Proverbs 5:18-20)

    

Tuesday, November 4, 2014

You Can't Win! The Truth About Compromising Positions

One of my favorite skits on "All That" (which was Nickelodeon's version of "Saturday Night Live") was "You Can't Win."  It was a game show which was deliberately rigged so that the contestants would lose.  The very first time the skit aired, the host refused to even explain the rules.

"It doesn't matter!" he yelled, with a huge smile on his face, "Because you can't win!"

That statement sums up the truth about compromising positions.  If we wind up alone with a smoking hot babe or totally ripped stud, then we are in a scenario which has been rigged by the culture, the demonic kingdom, the babe/stud, (and if we're honest, our own lust), so that we lose.  The whole reason why this is called a compromising position is because it is designed to make us compromise our integrity and throw our future marriage under the bus.

In other words, WE CAN'T WIN!!!

Even if you "win" by taking a stand for righteousness and refusing the lewd advances of your date, you may still end up losing.

For instance, if you're a guy and you wind up in a compromising position, then "losing" means that you wind up with Baby Momma drama, an incurable disease that goes biological MMA on your man-parts, or your son or daughter getting dismembered in an abortion clinic.  "Winning" means that the nympho that tried to jump your bones gets insulted that you rejected her and tells the police (or worse, her dad and brothers), that you tried to rape her.  That means jail, running away from gun-toting relatives, and a reputation that is permanently damaged, even after you are found innocent.

If you're a girl and you wind up in a compromising position, then losing means that you get knocked up and abandoned, an incurable disease that lays the smackdown on your lady-parts, or having to choose between letting your life goals fly away like birds on steroids or letting some quack doctor tear apart your son or daughter in an abortion clinic (and possibly destroy your uterus in the process).  "Winning" means that your psycho date decides not to take "no" for an answer and rapes you.  That means months in court trying to get justice, a lifetime of therapy, and a body, mind, heart, and soul that will never quite work properly again.

If you were invited to play a game in which winning means going to jail and losing means death (or, if you're a lady, winning means getting raped and losing means getting knocked up and abandoned), would you play?  Absolutely not!  Well, if you allow yourself to wind up in a compromising position, that's the game you're playing.  Don't play a game that you can't win.  Avoid compromising positions and protect your future marriage, your reputation, and your life! 

2 Timothy 2: 22, "Flee the evil desires of youth and pursue righteousness, faith, love and peace, along with those who call on the Lord out of a pure heart." (NIV)